keeping it real

so it has been about a week or two since I last made goals to wake up earlier, have more of a quiet time and really devote myself to writing in my journal.  Well, to my surprise even I have done better than I had expected.  Since making the personal goals, I have upheld my disciplined devotion time and regular journal entries.  however waking up has not been that difficult.  I'm considering changing my goal a bit, I think that I will shoot for more of a 930am rather than 9am....something about the extra thirty minutes does wonders for my attitude.. haha Another goal is to find time to workout more regularly, but that is not exactly "as high of a priority" as it should be apparently. However, I did go on a bike ride today, about 1.5 miles...not bad for a fluke decision to ride.

I have been more quiet this week for some reason than I usually am....maybe just tired, I don't know.  But what I do know is that I have been able to focus on a lot of my goals...such as reading, devotions, and journal.  Not sure how that has affected my friends and family...but it's not like they have said anything to me about it. haha (I go by unnoticed all the time) 

I noticed that my urge to go to the pool has dwindled... probably because I know public schools have let their students out for summer.... enough said.

ugh. other than that my life is so boring these days.... every time I get excited about something it doesn't happen or it is forgotten about...oh well...  I really want something exciting to happen, maybe a new friend, a small getaway, dye my hair blue (I would never), aliens invade Charlotte...something! 

Obviously, I struggle with contentment.  Why is it that every time I think something will change...it doesn't? Maybe I'm being way too cynical and not allowing God to show me what has changed, or improved, or even what I can change about myself to encourage the change I want to see in other aspects of my life.  Whatever it is, it is not like I have much else going for me so I hope it happens and I don't miss out on it.  

depressing thought this week: If I stay at Trader Joes and work 40hrs a week, I will make more than I will working a 50-60hr week as a teacher....  uhhhmmmm yeah, sign me up for another college loan please?... 

encouraging thought this week: "If God is for us; then who can be against us?" Romans 8:31 

Oh, and I forgot to let you know....I am have a pen pal, he is my good friend Paul who is studying abroad in China...I received his first letter!  He sent it right before he left his hometown in Alabama oooonlyyy...he didn't put a return address on the envelope nor did he include his new address in the letter...so I can't even blame USPS on this one...